weight funk

Happy birthday to me! Lol.. I am still in a weight losing regime. Had changed to trying to exercise in the morning vs after work as usually after work, I would feel super lazy and tired and had sometimes missed my workout regime. I had been doing 30mins walks in the gym before I rush off for work. Total weight loss to date : 9 kgs. It wasnt a great number but I am pretty happy as I feel that slowly losing and maintaining is my key point vs losing weight quick. The weight loss is slowing down but hopefully it will start again. I had also been in a baking phase.. trying to do healthy cooking with no sugar and no or almost none butter inside. My next doc's visit is next Wednesday. I hope the sugar level is good as I did fell off the wagon a couple of times. But I will try my best! Ugh!

Yikes, been trying to eat healthily but fell off the wagon.. partially during my holiday trip. I am now sorta in a baking phase.. been trying to find healthy stuff that I can bake. One would be the sugar free butter free banana walnut cake.. I think I need soda bicarbonate to make it rise more!

Last weekend I also made pork ribs! oh heavenly ribs.. had a few and no other carbs.. ^^; hopefully it isnt that sinful...

Week two !

Just came back from the doctor's visit... I am stoked! Visit to the eye doctor came back alright (whew!) and ... the glucometer test came back decent! Doc was saying that he is hoping for a 7 which is normal for a diabetic or if better, around 6..and my result was 5.3!! Whee!

Doc was kinda afraid that i was feeling dizzy (low glucose) but so far I am okay but he ask me to be careful and be aware of the symptoms. In two months time, I'll be going for the H(somethin something test)... hopefully that is fine.

The key to it is early detection I guess. He was saying that it was lucky that I had found out early as a lot of people ignored the symptoms but I guess in my case, when I had the symptoms, I went for the health screen and then this.

Here is onward to this diet!!! Oh! I told my parents but fibbed a little bit on the dates and teh family was pretty shaken but i guess this is a wakeup call for all of us :)

Low GI Bread

I've been eating multigrain bread but recently found this loaf of bread marketed as low GI and specifically mentioned slow release of glucose into the blood. Hmm.. A bought me a loaf and while it taste the same plus i think even more grains than before, I hope it does what it says. It does cost more! >_<

I think I have to lessen even more the food intake. Doc say I should be able to lose 5kg before I see him (telling me this last week and Im going to see him by end of this week). Daily monitoring of the weight is depressing. I am fluctuating up down between thsoe few grams and its NOT going down the kgs.. ugh!

Confessions

Yep, looking at the title says it all. I haven't told my family about this yet. How do one tell their close ones about this? My family do not have a habit of calling each other weekly nor video call (one of my colleague said that he video calls his family every week). We usually send each other random sms throughout the day. Given that I stay alone and my family is in a different country, my parents do worry quite a fair bit about me. I guess its also because I am the youngest in the family.

If I don't tell them, they would feel really hurt that I hide this from them. But timing is everything. If I tell them face to face, it isn't easy too. I can imagine seeing the expressions on their face plus this time around, I am going home for a week and bringing my mum for a short holiday. It would spoil her holiday.

In the end I just told them that I am going for a health check and I guess next week I'll tell them that the result of the blood test is well.. diabetes.. Hopefully a week for it to sink in and process and move on from it. I have the feeling that my mum would be devastated. Sigh

Meat oh glorious meat

Yes.. I do love meat.. beef, pork, chicken... in forms of steaks, sausages, minced... argh.. that being said.. Okay, I wasn't too distraught over eating a little bit of bbq pork rib last night alongside my tasteless boiled vegetables. A diabetic diet doesn't mean totally not eating something but in moderation... at least in my mind and in what I have read and spoke to with my doc.

The weight is not going down yet. Mmm.... is okay,  I cannot be disappointed and fail but just continue on at this pace.

Food diary

Over the weekend, I told a close friend of mine that I was diabetic. Somehow we come to that topic as she was talking about how being sick sucks and she had some nerve problem which causes her very bad chest and neck pain and she knew that I went for a health check up. Diabetes is not a new thing to her since her uncle also have it and she is pre-diabetic. We talked about how we both have to try to exercise more and also eat wisely and that come to the topic of.. food diary.

Ah... food diary... all our utmost sins are confessed inside.. for her, it would be the multiple cans of cokes that she drinks.. for me.. lol.. I am almost afraid to think what is inside.. lol.. all things serious, I forgot about starting the diary till today. Scribbling down what I had for the past day and today and saw that I am eating quite a lot.. but I hope it is healthier. I had cut out most of the rice from my meals (being Asian, its sort of difficult given that its our staple) and taken more of wheat bread (the good kind of starch (?)). Hopefully this makes me a better eater and also help me with the weight loss.

Yesterday I still have the chest throbbing thing. But it also pass and the last heart check that I did (the ECG) was fine. Will check with my doc the next time I see him.

Doctor's visit

Had a visit to the doc today to check how effective is the medicine in lowering the glucose level. I got a 9 or a 162. That's not too bad. Previously it was in the 300 region. Bad side to the medication though.. I have runs and headache but doc say its norm and will review in two weeks time to recheck if it still continue. In addition, the blood pressure seems to be normal now. Could be due to the lower glucose in blood.

In the next visit, will be also visiting an eye doctor. I am kinda worried about that, hearing bout people becoming blind due to diabetes. Crossing fingers that all will be okay!

Today's breakfast was an egg sandwich and lunch was a portobello grilled mushroom sandwich. I am aiming to try to eat more veg and cut down on the meat. So far so good. Telling myself that I shouldnt quit cold turkey otherwise it would feel torturous and I'll quit even faster. I am trying to make healthier food choices, reading labels in everything that I buy (something that I still read and scratch my head sometimes).

For exercise, I am trying to continue doing it. Maybe I should play more of the Wii tennis. I have a slight ache in the forearm from swinging the wii controller too hard. Lol... it gotta burn some calories right?

Weekend

Yesterday went to the park for a walk. Didnt finish the entire park course as we wanted to pace ourselves and not overtire ourselves. I am lucky to have A who is encouraging and trying to help me out in my diet and exercise.

I am still always not sure whether am I eating too much or too little... well I had cut down most of my food but still... in the afternoon after the walk in the park and after the cleaning up the whole house, I finally chilled out on the couch and realise that my hands are really tingly.Its not the first time it happened but these couple of days more often. And also I have a bad case of the runs. For the past two days and today too...

Monday is the doc visit day. Maybe having Google just help me be more paranoid, wondering if this is a side effect from the meds I am starting on. Its okay... will move on!

Grass is not greener at the other side, it is green where you decide to water it

Diabetes

Day 1 of living with diabetes... at age 28. Was just diagnosed by the doctor yesterday. The doctor was surprised that I didn't have much of a reaction to his declaration. I guess I was just numb but also semi expecting it. This is the body finally rebelling against me after the multiple abuse of good food and sweet drinks. And its time for repentance.

Maybe it is typical with all new diabetes sufferers to go searching online, suddenly uncertain on what we can and cannot eat. If not all of them does that, well I do. Second guessing myself in my choices of food.. over simple things like... Apple...I also googled over every little thing.. like... cold hands.. is it due to the diabetes or is it because the office temperature is just a bit low.. or the constant headache....

With time, I'll slowly learn my ways and also hopefully be able to maintain and combat this disease. My only concern now is how I should tell my parents. My mum's side have a history of this and she was always very concerned over me having this disease, how do I tell her? This isn't something easily shared with my parents, not on the phone. The next time I meet them, I can't really tell them then too. It would destroy the festive mood, no? Dilemma.